21st Birthday Post

Hey potatots,

GMT +8, I am finally a legal adult. This journey had been a long; I gained some, lost some along way. I went through a lot of obstacles to get to where I am today.

Since preschool, I was a victim of bullying. Honestly I do not know why I was the target of bullying, all I know is that I have different interest from all the kids in Preschool. While, the bullying in elementary school was almost similar to my preschool ones, this time all those snooty rich kids are the reasons. Dear god, an 8 year old girl that likes books and writing is a special thing as she has already set a goal for herself.

Seriously, not only that. Teachers would ridicule me, not that I care much but I always take it with a pinch of salt and move on; being a chinese educated person those teachers from Chinese schools are monsters, if you are the odd one they will make you miserable. Fast foward to middle school, bullying never stopped there. I expereinced backstabbed and betrayals from “friends”, now I could care less nor give two shits about them. In middle school, I discovered the deeper layers of being in a fandom which lead to the birth of this blog~ 🎉

As High school came, my main focus is to GTFO the hellhole and presue my dream to be a journalist. The bullying from high school lasted until graduation, now I am a college girl that behaves like a 16 year old girl presuing her dream of being a journalist.

Writing, learning, teaching myself history and culture of different countries will always be my passion. What the future holds for me will always be a mystery, as fate works in various ways.

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Am I losing interest in cosplay?

Hello there Potatots~

It’s almost the end of February and a happy Lunar New Year to all of you. May the year of the doggo bring everyone prosperity and good fortune. As the title says, am I losing interest in my all-time most dedicated hobby, cosplay?

The answer is maybe, the cosplay community is getting really toxic here in Malaysia; I’m not sure about other countries. It is hard for me to enjoy this supposed drama and politics free hobby. Cosplay is a hobby for all of us to enjoy regardless our age, gender, race and what not. Now, cosplay is about being popular and pretty. What’s the point of being who we are in cosplay with all these judgmental people telling us what we should or should not do? I personally had a few criticism guilt along the way, but I am sincerely changing for the better. And I also see my friends letting their ego eat them after being acquainted with a group or mentors that have more experience.

For now, I am just taking things slowly after the one-year cosplay break that I took last year,  observing how the community work is far more interesting to be involved directly with the toxicity. I’m also limiting myself to not cosplay at all or just fulfill planned cosplay with friends prior to an event or convention. Not going to lie, I am way more invested in my merch collecting at the moment.

So what is your experience with the cosplay community around you? Share yours in the comments~ ❤

My first amiami experience

Hey Potatots~

It’s the end of January! Yay! And guess what, I am ruining my life by being a soon to be frequent buyer on the amazing yet painful website called Amiami! (This is not a sponsored or requested post.) I finally got the guts to do my own online shopping after being relying on some proxies from my group of friends in the ACG community in Malaysia. But seriously, relying on proxy is the last resort you’ll have cause not all shops in Japan ships internationally. Like Animate JP, Aniplex…

I really enjoyed the services amiami has, the delivery from Japan to overseas is less than a week. Both my orders that I ordered from amiami are fast on arrival, I would seriously consider buying things for myself on amiami. As you guys know, that I am currently in the Fate fandom due to my conversion back in Taiwan last year. I roughly spent 500 Malaysian Ringgit for my January 2018 shopping list. I mean… It’s Fate and how could I not… I sacrificed part of my travel funds and PS Vita cash for this. /slapped

To be brutally blunt and honest, Amiami is not a website for people who isn’t ready eat dirt after paying their debts. I am triple broke because I am also a cosplayer to add salt to my wounds. ಥ益ಥ  PSA: Newbie cosplayers, please don’t be like me. However, thank god the Malaysian customs aren’t a bitch and all my items are passes. PHEW If you all want to try to by things from amiami, I will drop the link here. You need to create your own account to proceed with your painful shopping. I used both DHL and EMS from amiami, they are pretty reliable. No worries about parcel being lost or untrackable.

Link to amiami: happy dying

Here is my Amiami haul, all Fate/Grand Order boxes.

Amiami Loots

I don’t Kakin for the game, but Kakin for the merch HAHAHAHAHAHA

Box Samples

Boxes sample ~ ❤

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Each purchase, amiami would give a thank you card ~ ❤

Maybe, after this I will try the animate international’s online shopping service as I have DVDs to buy and CDJapan haven’t update their list yet.

See you guys next time ~ ❤

 

 

 

Updates and Rants

Hi Potatots,

I know you haven’t been hearing from me for a while now, I am still alive and had been struggling with my final year in college. I am also waiting for this season, fall season to end for the anime reviews.

Honestly, college is a pain after my internship days. New juniors are whiny little brats that constantly want to redo their own presentation screw ups. I seriously want to lecture them that in life, you can’t redo anything. You need to take everything with a pinch of salt and move on.

Working life had made me really sour, I am getting a heart attack from juniors that i need to baby. JUST UGH! They are grown adults, can’t they do their own shit?! I AM SO DONE!

2017 is ending really soon, I hope it goes down with a bang. See you guys soon~

❤ Koimo

Internship Journey Begins

In a blink of an eye, 2 years of college life is almost up. I am currently in internship program required by my college. I am internally crying for I am a type 2 introvert, and I am also a S & C from the DISC spectrum. Anywho, the company that I interned with is somewhat my dream company at my hometown, now I am on my 2nd day of the 3 months program. My current colleagues are nice people and they are super friendly, one of the Sabahan trait.

Working for a familiar magazine company is most of everyone’s dream, including mine. I have yet to learn a lot, I’m turning 20 tomorrow on the 27th. Yay quarter life crisis.

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This post doesn’t have a specific title for my own emotions are all over the place. My grandfather passed on on Easter Sunday afternoon, I managed to see him one last time the night before. I was away from home from college, One my second year last year… He was diagnosed with cologne cancer and was in a bad state for me. My grandfather and I have a special bond, even though I have younger cousins and a sister below me… I am the first grandchild he had and my given name, Sonia was given by him. Yes, even though I personally dislike that name because of sceptical people; I am still grateful for that.

Growing up, I may not physically express my love to my grandpa. However, I do love  him in my own way. Normally, I would wait for my mom and grandpa after church for his elderly choir. I was a kid back then, I threw a lot of tantrums about it. Yet… My grandpa doesn’t say anything about it. As years goes by to my adolescence years, I am the black sheep of the family due to my ‘hanzo’ phase; I would always scream and shout at all of cousins including my sister. I know my grandpa is always annoyed with me behaving like that, he never said anything.

Fast foward, today.  I am almost finished with my diploma studies, his condition was getting worse each day. It pains me to be far away from him, cause I am scared of losing my grandpa. All my memories with him would forever be memories and I don’t have anyone reminisce with . However, I am reliefed that God decided to take him away during Easter. He knows that my grandpa had been suffering, All of god’s doings are the best. Although I am not ready to let go yet, I have to.

My best memory with my grandpa would be my preschool days, sometimes after school he would fetch me, my cousin and my sister. He would bring us to eat ice cream without telling my mom, however… She would found out eventually and lecture him on not to let us eat ice cream. My grandpa is also very peculiar, he wasn’t allow to eat any kind of food, he would have the ‘Kia Su’ attitude and tried to eat it. That happened when he was first admitted to the hospital and it was the lunar this year, it was the reunion dinner. He wasn’t allowed to eat braised pork, everyone – the adults already told him he can’t eat it. While everyone was chit chatting, He would try to go incognito and snuck a bite. Now, he can’t eat it anymore.

Good bye grandpa, I will miss you tenfold for you had been asking where I was all the time when I am far away from you. May you reunite with your sister and brother there. You would always be the best grandpa I ever have.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Am I growing up?

It had been 7 weeks since I stopped watching Anime, or mingle around the topic that has to do with it. I still read some comics; not just Japanese. I do read from Mainland China. They have good ones there. However… I am more interested in Western TV show now. Like Gotham, The Flash, Riverdale, Arrow, Shameless (US). Its it possible for me to trade my 8 years worth of immaturity for something new and more mature?

What I meant on the word ‘Growing Up’ doesn’t revolves around my psychical feature but more on the psychological feature. I admit that I wasted 8 years of my life being immature and irresponsible. Looking back at myself, it’s really stupid and childish on acting like that. Well… I got a good slap in the face from reality last year when my life was suddenly thrown out of the window and it was shitty.

Unlike Western households, Asian households are not really open about mental illness, broken family and sexual orientations. Which is understandable, not even the major influence spectrum, Anime & Manga could accurately portray a broken family well. It’s kind of like taboo to talk about these topics in an Asian house.  Other than external sources on how am I ‘growing up’, religion is also the key player on my maturity.

I maybe a born Christian, through out my lifetime; I am never religious nor I care about the Christian lifestyle. God called out to me last year from Alpha in my college. Now, I am getting back on my own feet with a more mature mindset.