Internship Journey Begins

In a blink of an eye, 2 years of college life is almost up. I am currently in internship program required by my college. I am internally crying for I am a type 2 introvert, and I am also a S & C from the DISC spectrum. Anywho, the company that I interned with is somewhat my dream company at my hometown, now I am on my 2nd day of the 3 months program. My current colleagues are nice people and they are super friendly, one of the Sabahan trait.

Working for a familiar magazine company is most of everyone’s dream, including mine. I have yet to learn a lot, I’m turning 20 tomorrow on the 27th. Yay quarter life crisis.

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This post doesn’t have a specific title for my own emotions are all over the place. My grandfather passed on on Easter Sunday afternoon, I managed to see him one last time the night before. I was away from home from college, One my second year last year… He was diagnosed with cologne cancer and was in a bad state for me. My grandfather and I have a special bond, even though I have younger cousins and a sister below me… I am the first grandchild he had and my given name, Sonia was given by him. Yes, even though I personally dislike that name because of sceptical people; I am still grateful for that.

Growing up, I may not physically express my love to my grandpa. However, I do love  him in my own way. Normally, I would wait for my mom and grandpa after church for his elderly choir. I was a kid back then, I threw a lot of tantrums about it. Yet… My grandpa doesn’t say anything about it. As years goes by to my adolescence years, I am the black sheep of the family due to my ‘hanzo’ phase; I would always scream and shout at all of cousins including my sister. I know my grandpa is always annoyed with me behaving like that, he never said anything.

Fast foward, today.  I am almost finished with my diploma studies, his condition was getting worse each day. It pains me to be far away from him, cause I am scared of losing my grandpa. All my memories with him would forever be memories and I don’t have anyone reminisce with . However, I am reliefed that God decided to take him away during Easter. He knows that my grandpa had been suffering, All of god’s doings are the best. Although I am not ready to let go yet, I have to.

My best memory with my grandpa would be my preschool days, sometimes after school he would fetch me, my cousin and my sister. He would bring us to eat ice cream without telling my mom, however… She would found out eventually and lecture him on not to let us eat ice cream. My grandpa is also very peculiar, he wasn’t allow to eat any kind of food, he would have the ‘Kia Su’ attitude and tried to eat it. That happened when he was first admitted to the hospital and it was the lunar this year, it was the reunion dinner. He wasn’t allowed to eat braised pork, everyone – the adults already told him he can’t eat it. While everyone was chit chatting, He would try to go incognito and snuck a bite. Now, he can’t eat it anymore.

Good bye grandpa, I will miss you tenfold for you had been asking where I was all the time when I am far away from you. May you reunite with your sister and brother there. You would always be the best grandpa I ever have.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Am I growing up?

It had been 7 weeks since I stopped watching Anime, or mingle around the topic that has to do with it. I still read some comics; not just Japanese. I do read from Mainland China. They have good ones there. However… I am more interested in Western TV show now. Like Gotham, The Flash, Riverdale, Arrow, Shameless (US). Its it possible for me to trade my 8 years worth of immaturity for something new and more mature?

What I meant on the word ‘Growing Up’ doesn’t revolves around my psychical feature but more on the psychological feature. I admit that I wasted 8 years of my life being immature and irresponsible. Looking back at myself, it’s really stupid and childish on acting like that. Well… I got a good slap in the face from reality last year when my life was suddenly thrown out of the window and it was shitty.

Unlike Western households, Asian households are not really open about mental illness, broken family and sexual orientations. Which is understandable, not even the major influence spectrum, Anime & Manga could accurately portray a broken family well. It’s kind of like taboo to talk about these topics in an Asian house.  Other than external sources on how am I ‘growing up’, religion is also the key player on my maturity.

I maybe a born Christian, through out my lifetime; I am never religious nor I care about the Christian lifestyle. God called out to me last year from Alpha in my college. Now, I am getting back on my own feet with a more mature mindset.

Why I go back to Superheroes

It had been a solid 5 – 6 weeks that I did not returned to the Asian pop culture spectrum of my life. I am quite comfortable here with the western pop culture. I’m not talking about celebrities or songs. I am talking about SUPERHEROES!

My life had been turning 360 degrees, my mom is working 2 jobs. My family is breaking thanks to my ‘dad’. The reason why I chose the topic , Superhero is because of my mom. She is both my wizard and my hero. Other than that is also due to my life is unrelatable to the positive vibe that all the anime had been promoting. I know not all anime is like that, there are a bunch of dark themed ones. However, the Asian spectrum isn’t well in knowledge on dealing with broken family, the struggles and all….

Going back to the superhero topic, having a role model to look up to is always a child’s dream especially when the role model is a superhero. My all time superhero that I always look up to is Superman, I know he is too OP in the 21st century now. But, I was only 5-10 years old when I look up to him. Now, Wonder Woman is my  role model now, I chose her is also due to my mom being a strong and brave woman.

I haven’t been writing fun things after I went on the Asian pop to Western Pop transition. It’s had been rough for me to do so, but I am slowly coping it.

 

Do tell me who is your Superhero role model now or from childhood.

Harry Potter and More…

Hey guys, long time no write. Even though it’s only a few weeks of no writing, I am driven to a corner in my family during the Lunar New Year break last two weeks. My grandfather was hospitalized for cologne cancer and it’s really painful for me, my grandfather was my only father figure in my life. I solemnly say, my biological father is no longer the ideal father figure in my life.  Moving on, the title of this post has Harry Potter involved and why does HP has to do with my purpose of this post?

To be honest, I wasn’t too keen in the Harry Potter fandom during it’s peak year from 2001 -2011. During that time, I am only on the surface as fan. However, recently…. I am officially in to Harry Potter; I blame fan fiction, the movies marathon on TV. I never really thought that I would be in the HP family few years late.  Harry Potter had been my sanctuary to escape from my really messed up life. Last two weeks, I made some self crafted wands from The Wizarding World of Harry Potter and Pottermore. I burnt my fingers from the hot glue gun and it was worth it.

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My wands that I made,  it is relaxing for doing crafting.

Till next time. ヘ(´ω`ヘ)

Happy New Year 2017!

Happy New Year! It’s 2017, GMT+8 My time zone. A lot of things happened last year and what had burnt into my memories were bad ones. Both from college and home. Moving on, I hope 2017 would be better, I’m going in to my early 20s and it wouldn’t be fun. I am finishing my diploma studies soon and I will be in my internship in May. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I AM NOT READY FOE ADULTHOOD! Not only that, I am thinking of celebrating my 20th birthday at Japan; it’s had always been my dream to go Japan for once. Earlier Japan trip dreams were mostly to feed my weeaboo dreams, now it’s a different for Touken Ranbu and Bungou Stray Dogs came into my life and shifted my travel purpose.

I do sincerely hope my Japan trip dream would happen, it would make my 20th birthday worth awhile. And, I do hope I wouldn’t want to see nor face back stabbers that hurt me last year. 2017 would be a slow year for Baked Potatoes since I would be in internship in May and won’t have all the free time to watch anime and review them on time. further more, I have college to worry about and I need to keep those potential back stabbers away. Ewwwwwwwwww. * takes out repellent * I should probably stop bitching on  New years. Last but certainly not least, I am officially starting my Itabag lifestyle. /Laugh cry I need a new life.

 

Happy New Year 2017! Stay Awesome people.

 

Finally 19

April 27th, marks my 19th year of existence in this semi-fucked up world. I grew to be a hybrid of both a Western pop culture and Eastern pop culture fan. I was always a social outcast due to my interesting choices of making friends, sexual orientation and hobbies.  However, life wasn’t as cruel as it seems; I met people who likes the same thing that I do and they had been with me ever since. Now, I am just a girl obsessing over Japanese culture and fashion.

I learned a lot of things while growing up, it was tough but i went through it. As I got into cosplay during my early teens, I get to see the world more realistically. It was a scary place. I got back stabbed a few times in high school, now I am very wary of who am I befriending with.

-6a20d966308d60a0 Mikazuki: Aruji, I took the blade for you…

Now, 2016 I have a lot of mystery to solve in life and I had loving friends and family to go through it with me. For now, I am still struggling in college. Being a college student meant a lot. More responsibilities and all…

ccf03ef348cfb46 Mikazuki: Aruji…don’t procrastinate your work.

^ Aruji x Hotaru.jpg ^ A lovely art drawn by my bestie, mori. So cute! My Saniwa and a still missing Oodachi, Hotarumaru.

1fb918553ee9b7d2.jpg Uguisumaru: Wahhh!!! Aruji….

Next year, I’ll be 20. How times flies by and I feel old every year. Never less, I will forever be 16 at heart.

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Merry Christmas 2K15

It’s the time of the year again! It’s Christmas!!! This year, it’s a bit off for me since I wasn’t spending it with my boyfie. Anywho, on the 3rd day 27th I had to attend a Christmas Cosplay event at a shopping mall. Yay! I am cosplaying as my 2015 newest cosplay, Neko from <K>!

 

See you guys this Sunday! Nya~

Update from Minami

Hey guys, i haven’t been updating for so long right? Yeah, sorry about that. College is really getting into my nerves.

I really liked it here at West Malaysia, as a college student and a cosplayer. These few weeks, I had been attending quite a number of ACG events here. The ACG community here was exactly like my hometown’s ACG community except, it’s bigger.

My first official event here was MGACE 2015, I only went for the two famous Chinese cosplayer, Baozi & Hana. Not only that, I got to meet them for the meet and greet session. What’s the best part? I won the official event banner , signed by Baozi during the last day lucky draw!!! if you want to see it, head over to my instagram > Koimo_Potato to see it.

My second event was Game Plan. The event was held at my campus and I had lots of fun moments, since I got to selfie with Onnie trice and she talked to me about dealing with Koto Pool, Dead Pool cosplaying as Kotori Minami from Love Live. My fun was short lived when my family ‘surprise’ visit made me a bit glitchy since i DID tell them about Game plan and reminded them AGAIN when I called them to sent my costume over. I really don’t get them, are they doing that purposely to piss me off??!!!

The third event just ended last week and it is CosMart! I WAYYYYYYYYYY too much fun at CosMart, I got to meet new friends and friends I haven’t seen after OtaFuse 2014. The event was crowded and it is really hard to walk at the booth area since it was mostly crowded with people.

Bonus Rant:

Excuse some swear words in Chinese.

你他妈!!! WHY IS IT THAT EVERY TIME AT THE EVENTS WHEN I AM NOT COSPLAYING , THERE WOULD ALWAYS BE A ARIMA PAPA-IN-LAW COSPLAYER!? AND, IT IS THE SAME COSPLAYER THAT I SEE EVERY. TIME. AT. THE. EVENTS. I. ATTENDED. 妈的。。。。我的运气有那么烂么??????